My Story

Ian Prometheus

So I grew up in a traditional Catholic household, went to Catholic school, but we weren’t really religious just Catholic because that’s how it was.

Then when I was a teenager, I took the music lessons. My teacher was a very conservative evangelical. He got me on board right away. My dad had just died a few years earlier, so I was desperate to fit in and to be accepted by a group. Those are typically the people that evangelical Christians prey upon.

Anyway, I found great joy for a long time in that going to church having many Christian friends having nice Christian girlfriends even dating a pastor’s daughter, but then I’ve contracted food poisoning c diff in particular. I eventually got it cured with antibiotics, but I ended up having post infections IBS. This got me to question God’s plan for my life greatly.

After a long time of getting prayed for having hands laid upon me, I started to question everything I began to have a great deal of anger and resentment towards God for not healing me so that led me to the path of agnostic atheism. And I stayed there for a while as I watched many YouTube videos on comparative religions, opening myself up to new things new points of views learning how to love and respect people that look differently than me such as other atheists and folks from other religions, LGBTQ people that I was taught to hate others that were deemed as heretical.

But I still noticed something was not quite right with the world so I came across the nag hammadi library. Specifically the apocryphon of john. This document opened up a whole New World to me. It flipped the script on Genesis and made me realize that I wasn’t born a worthless sinner ...and that Yahweh, the God I was told was all-loving and powerful, was nothing more than a malevolent being that has us trapped in this material world. I started to read about how Jesus was the one that caused Adam to eat the fruit of the tree of knowledge. I don’t know if the fruit is literal or not or any of that happened I don’t believe in inerrancy of any ancient text but having this knowledge made me begin to look into other religions start to compare everything I developed a sort of spiritual syncretism of my own. One that is not evangelistic one where I don’t care if anybody disagrees with me, one where I am not afraid of Christian orthodoxy one that puts the power in my hands, and not in the hands of a malevolent god that only wants worship and service and money ha ha.

I don’t really have a denomination, because there really isn’t one with gnostic belief. There is no single orthodoxy there is no structure, but my beliefs with align with what you would call the Sethians. We don’t care what anybody else believes we don’t care to evangelize once again we just want more knowledge and we want people to understand that monotheism whether it be Judaism Christianity or Islam traps people’s mind in a box one that can seem nearly impossible to get out of the reason why I write this is to inspire others to at least question what they believe if you end up at complete atheism great if you stay a Christian and become more progressive great if you end up being into other religions and other ancient texts, like I did, that’s great too I don’t really care.

I just want people to figure out their truth, anyway, I strictly only see Jesus and any other God from a pantheon as knowledge givers I don’t believe that anybody has to be saved from their sins because I believe original sin is fake. I do believe that we mess up and do things that are wrong, but we don’t need Jesus or anybody to be tortured to death for our forgiveness. And I don’t think by not believing a certain way, or a certain thing will lead us to eternal damnation. I believe that when we leave this world, we are reunited with what is called the divine pleroma (or fullness) everybody is welcome there it’s not an exclusive club. anyway that’s my discourse and as Jesus Christ said the truth shall set you free.